I guess it's been over a month since I've updated this thing. So here is whats up. I'm moving. I'm kinda tired of Dublin, my apartment complex is filled with starter families and divorcees not a whole lot of diversity there. I am moving to Harrison West (Columbus)so that I will be closer to work and OSU campus. The neighbor hood is beautiful, progressive, and has a lot of appeal to people of my age group. I am getting a town house so I will still have a guest room. Its a wonderful deal, the total cost will be $110 less than if I were to stay in Dublin.
On top of moving, Renaissance Festival was amazing as usual. I got a new belt and a desire for a new hobby. Some time in the next week I will be looking to start leather working. I figured I could make myself a cheap belt using less harmful dyes than traditional leather working. From what I've found online it seems easy for what I want to be able to do.
When I get my new place I'll go back to considering a lighting studio setup for photography. I still have a few in mind along with a shiny new 7D, (Merry Christmas to me) if all goes well.
I am trying to eliminate as many chemicals from my life as possible.. I watch and read too much on tv and online.. its scary. So my cleaning supplies are from Green Works and I am attempting to get as close to 0 waste as possible. Sadly due to the limited availability of clothing my size in 2nd hand stores I can't make quite the impact on my cotton usage as I wanted. I am trying to look for places that sell bamboo clothing my size so if any one knows of a place let me know. Cotton Facts: [link]

That is all I have for now...

I was doing wonderful, keeping to myself. Doing my own thing in my free time. Not dealing with my life and my problems. I found myself this weekend hanging out with my friends and feeling more alone than I have for in a long time. I'm not mulling over one ex in general, at various points in my day they all came to mind I'm sure. In all I had a good day. We trespassed in some abandoned buildings and went to a japaneese Grocery/restaurant for diner. After some down time video gaming we went to the hookah bar... (fyi hookah is not as good as all the hype but I like the socializing) its only now as I lay down to sleep that I again start to think. Its amazing. When I'm alone, I'm never really lonely, but as I sprawl out across the couch at my friends place, the world never felt so empty. Bleh. On a lighter note... I have no clue where I put my memory card for my camera... I'm going to have to clean my apt to try and find it.... DANG IT. Ren Fest has officially started, and I have a friend from Cali coming to visit in 17 days. What an exciting month.

So a friend brought it to my attention that no all of my photos were easily accessable. It seems that when I removed all my extra photos from the featured page I didn't properly put them into folders for ease of use. So I've created new folder entitled Horse for all the pictures I've taken and posted as well as I will be posting a few extras not already here.

As I looked at my page counter today I can't help but notice I am 17 page views away from the 2k mark. I wanted to take time to thank everyone for helping this happen. Since I missed the 500 1000 and 1500 marks I thought I had a lot to make up for. Thank you everyone for stopping by, faving and watching me. I'd like to give a special thank you to MissSamiesam. She has helped me out a lot as far as motivation to get better. Thank you again everyone. I'm looking forward to hitting the 3k mark.

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I never asked to be an emotional person. I never asked fall in love. I never asked for any of them to end. I never asked for any one to get hurt. I'm expected to be able to control them. For some reason though, I can't seem to help but bring doom upon myself. I question if I should even try. I've had 4 women who I let be my whole world and in anywhere from a month to 2 and a half years they all were gone. I ask myself what could I have done different why must it end this way. My friends tell me there is nothing I can do. For once I want someone to feel the way I do and not give up on me, on us. I want to give up on the world, give up on love, just give up on life for a little bit. I'm going to take pictures and upload them when I can. Over all please expect me to be unresponsive and slow to upload anything.