In some respects
I suspect you've got a respectable side
When pushed and pulled and pressured
You seldom run and hide
But it's for someone else's benefit
Not for what you wanna do
Until I realize that you've realized
I'm gonna say these words to you

You don't know what love is
You do as you're told
Just as a child at ten might act
But you're far too old
You're not hopeless or helpless
And I hate to sound cold
But you don't know what love is...
You just do as you're told

I can see your man
Cant help but win
Any problems that may arise
But in his mind there can be no sin
If you never criticize
You just keep on repeating
All those empty "I love you's"
Until you say you deserve better
I'm gonna lay right into you

You don't know what love is
You just do as you're told
Just as a child of ten might act
But you're far too old
Your not hopeless or helpless
And I hate to sound cold
But you don't know what love is
No you don't know what love is
No you don't know what love is

You just do as you're told
You do as you're told
Yeah

White stripes


Three simple words that are supposed to mean so much.. It's so easy to say much harder to show, but actions do speak louder than words. What have you shown me? I've heard them too many times. Were they all lies or do they really not know what power those words are supposed to hold? I can't help but wait and see how each situation plays out. Every time I hear it they show me something different. They could have had so much more, if only they'd have shown me differently. But "you don't know what love is, You just do as you're told."


Sorry for the emoish rant. I'm pissed off about something.

Well this is a festive time of year so this is going to be a happy and emo journal all at the same time. In 25 years this is my first Christmas I've spent away from my family, and had no one to share it with. As I get home from work at 12:12am Christmas day I heated up myself a wonderful Christmas dinner. A bowl of chili. I miss my family and life has been so busy I haven't had a chance to go see my new niece. Oh well Saturday night I have big plans.. a 2 hr drive to Cincinnati to celebrate a late Christmas with my family. None of the presents I've bought have been wrapped and I get to go back to work for Christmas day. I'll probably have chili again for dinner tomorrow night. oh well I'm going to go.. I hope everyone has a safe and happy Christmas.

So I guess its about time for another update as it's been 4 months since you last heard from me.
I am now officially moved. I ride my bike to work every day, not much of a workout but still better than the 20 min I use to spend in my car.
I'm trying to do different things in my photography in case you didn't notice my background. I'm kinda bored with how my life is going but I'm trying to change some things, including my schedule at work.
This is kinda random because Taylor Swift is on the SNL I'm watching... DAMN ADHD. It's been a long week at work. I'm loving my new place I need to do some more unpacking and organizing. I have a new baby niece that I still haven't been home to see. Christmas is coming up and I haven't bought any gifts yet.. I'm such a slacker. That's all I really have right now. Just wanted to update everyone and test out my new skin.

I guess it's been over a month since I've updated this thing. So here is whats up. I'm moving. I'm kinda tired of Dublin, my apartment complex is filled with starter families and divorcees not a whole lot of diversity there. I am moving to Harrison West (Columbus)so that I will be closer to work and OSU campus. The neighbor hood is beautiful, progressive, and has a lot of appeal to people of my age group. I am getting a town house so I will still have a guest room. Its a wonderful deal, the total cost will be $110 less than if I were to stay in Dublin.
On top of moving, Renaissance Festival was amazing as usual. I got a new belt and a desire for a new hobby. Some time in the next week I will be looking to start leather working. I figured I could make myself a cheap belt using less harmful dyes than traditional leather working. From what I've found online it seems easy for what I want to be able to do.
When I get my new place I'll go back to considering a lighting studio setup for photography. I still have a few in mind along with a shiny new 7D, (Merry Christmas to me) if all goes well.
I am trying to eliminate as many chemicals from my life as possible.. I watch and read too much on tv and online.. its scary. So my cleaning supplies are from Green Works and I am attempting to get as close to 0 waste as possible. Sadly due to the limited availability of clothing my size in 2nd hand stores I can't make quite the impact on my cotton usage as I wanted. I am trying to look for places that sell bamboo clothing my size so if any one knows of a place let me know. Cotton Facts: [link]

That is all I have for now...

I was doing wonderful, keeping to myself. Doing my own thing in my free time. Not dealing with my life and my problems. I found myself this weekend hanging out with my friends and feeling more alone than I have for in a long time. I'm not mulling over one ex in general, at various points in my day they all came to mind I'm sure. In all I had a good day. We trespassed in some abandoned buildings and went to a japaneese Grocery/restaurant for diner. After some down time video gaming we went to the hookah bar... (fyi hookah is not as good as all the hype but I like the socializing) its only now as I lay down to sleep that I again start to think. Its amazing. When I'm alone, I'm never really lonely, but as I sprawl out across the couch at my friends place, the world never felt so empty. Bleh. On a lighter note... I have no clue where I put my memory card for my camera... I'm going to have to clean my apt to try and find it.... DANG IT. Ren Fest has officially started, and I have a friend from Cali coming to visit in 17 days. What an exciting month.